My default setting for any (new) thing I set out to do is overthink, plan, trash the plan, re-plan, spiral off into panic and anxiety attack mode, compare myself to people doing other things, resubscribe my imposter syndrome plan (even though I’m on a premium subscription).
If it survives all of the above, it then gets hit with a touch of fear, inconsistency and “what if” for good measure. I go through my fat “why it won’t work” dossier to find a valid reason to quit and when a setback crops up, I am so quick to tell myself “I told you so…”
“Although no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” – Carl Bard.
What is the purpose of all these shalaye you ask? Nothing much, it’s just a reminder to myself and someone out there to keep trying. Begin where you are, start irrespective of what your internal perfection meter is reading. Push past those voices in your head and just begin. The voices may seem loud but you are louder and stronger.
“Success is not final. Failure is not fatal. It’s the courage to continue that counts.” – Winston Churchill.
It is really hard to convince ourselves to begin anything especially when we have been faced with failure in the past. One thing I keep relearning and reiterating to myself is the fact that I am not my mistakes or failure. This can be difficult thing to believe especially when your current life/situation doesn’t reflect that belief, how ever it can and WILL be done!
“It’s never too late to become who you want to be. I hope you live a life that you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start over.” — F. Scott Fitzgerald
The ironic part for me is that one of 2020’s mantra is #doitafraid but between trying to survive a pandemic, suppressing apocalyptic thoughts and just trying to live and not allow the darkness win, I forgot about doing it afraid, so this post is more for me than you. I need to let go of the fear and just begin, set aside my permutations and perfection pursuit and just live, I hope you will join me on this new quest.
As we settle into the second half of 2020, please do not put unnecessary pressure on yourself, it doesn’t have to be put together or perfect, it just has to be started. Remember, you can do it, all you need to do is just begin!
May the remaining part of 2020 be filled with beautiful testimonies, experiences and growth. May we look back 6 months from now and be glad that we began.
That’s it quirkies, I was planning to write the first few sentences as a caption on Instagram but decided to make a mini post instead. I guess this me following the “just begin” mantra and not overthinking being back here on the blog, so yay me!
That thing you’re afraid to write, trust me, I’ve thought about it😉, so don’t be shy, let me know your thoughts in the comment section.
Shalaye (Yoruba): explanation.